We had a nice time over the Easter weekend: excited kids, big ol' living room egg hunt, special time spent with family and family of family. Ours was a rainy Easter; I don't recall ever having a rainy Easter in California! This means the hills will get to stay green a little bit longer; everything would have been brown by now without the rainfall we've had this spring.
Thing 2 was pretty excited about Easter!
(So was Thing 1, but it was manifested in wiggling rather than making a countdown chart.)
(So was Thing 1, but it was manifested in wiggling rather than making a countdown chart.)
So why am I writing today, a Monday? I guess it's in the interest of full disclosure, and to figure out how I felt about eating more sweets in a single day than I have since I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes nearly 2 years ago. Some history: my diagnosis happened in early summer. As I've written elsewhere, it completely turned my world...well...opposite. In some ways, the timing was great, because I had a whole summer with no holiday minefields to overcome and no school schedule to work around. By Easter #1 with type 2 diabetes, I'd lost a bunch of weight, was exercising regularly and eating sensibly, and was in good enough shape to have two pieces of candy for dessert at the annual gathering without totally blowing my blood glucose levels or going off on a binge. I had good strategy for our own Easter candy: get stuff I didn't care about for the kids and get a little bit of high-quality 70% chocolate for my husband and I to share. That was my strategy this year, too, but it didn't fully work out that way.
I could blame the well-meaning person who sent us nearly 6 pounds of See's, the premium candy of my childhood Easters.
I could blame Mr. Handsome-and-Handy, who opened one of the boxes on Saturday.
I could blame feeling down and crappy from having a nasty chest cold thing that has totally sapped my energy.
I could blame the human cultural tendency for food-as-celebration, or Mary See and her minions who followed for engineering their tastebud trifectas of sugar, fat, and salt.
But really, I can only blame me.
Thing is, I don't really feel like blaming anyone or anything. It seems to me to give too much power to what happened. I'd rather think about what happened, chalk it up to experience and being human, hopefully laugh about it a little with people who understand, and move on.
Memo
To: Pubsgal
From: Me, Myself, and I
It has come to our attention that we ate things and quantities that are in direct conflict with our health goals this past weekend. The good news is that we didn't eat as much as in pre-diagnosis days. That opened box would have been emptied and spinning on the ground like a fallen hubcap mere minutes after we'd been let loose on it. The bad news is that we let one or two pieces turn into many, even though they were sensibly spaced through the day and consumed with healthy foods. The scary news is that we don't even remember how many pieces we ate, we knew there would be little opportunity to even play it out of our system due to the rain, and that we knew full well that foods like this cause addictive behavior patterns in rodents. (Side note: For those that already read Debby's excellent "Back in the Saddle" post, this is the same article. I'd seen it before, but I don't recall the mention of "sausage" and "cheesecake", which gave me a chill; it's not just processed flour+HFCS foods. And the researchers' question of "why do some people who have a biological tendency towards addiction go to drugs, while others go to alcohol, and others go to food?" merits an entire post on its own. Okay, back to the memo...) We respectfully note that See's assorted chocolates are officially labeled a "trigger food" and are summarily placed on the "really, just don't go there" list. On a positive note, we commend ourself for taking the remaining boxes to the Easter gathering and to the farthest removed breakrooms at our place of employment. We also duly note that any withdrawal-like symptoms may be cross-checked and dismissed by use of the blood glucose meter, and can be endured in conjunction with that nasty cold. April madness must not be allowed to bring May badness.
P.S. I just couldn't resist going with Easter egg colors for April, I know it's a little busy....
8 comments:
I love the memo to yourself! You know, I think what I see is a healthy perspective coming from you.
Many times after a holiday, blogs are full of self-flagellation and guilt. I think the more successful people acknowledge the overeating and just move on. No guilt.
This blog post was a revelation for me! Thanks for writing the memo to yourself; I think it's addressed to me, too ;)
I love your thoughts on not BLAMING it on anyone. It happened, it's over, on to the next thing.
(I lost count of how many chocolates I ate, too. Oops).
OMGosh, Pubsgal. I laugh every time I read you are a tech writer, because, really, if you ever wanted to switch careers, you could easily become a comedy writer.
You KNOW I know all about the See's candies, although they were not a part of my childhood Easters.
I LOVE your conclusion to NOT blame anybody.
And the memo to yourself is a PRICELESS piece of writing. I don't need to quote all of you back to you but this one line 'That opened box would have been emptied and spinning on the ground like a fallen hubcap mere minutes after we'd been let loose on it.' I'm still laughing.
From one lab rat to another--I think we're doing pretty good at figuring this maze out.
Very well-said, lady. Forgive yourself and move on.
okay after reading this i've lost my desire to eat the chocolate covered marshmallow cross my niece gave me. now to just hold on to this iron will until i'm able to feed it to someone else
I like the Easter colors! Happy Easter! The memo is funny and I love your description of the See's people (minions and their trifecta and all). LOL Well, Easter's over and it's all about rebirth and renewal, so here's to yours! xo and no worries. it was just one eensy weensy weekend.
Cracking up over here.
Signed,
A lab rat addicted to the sugar / fat / salt combo!
What a great post...I love the memo to yourself--- Your perspective is refreshing. When I screw up I tend to beat myself up over and over again...I could learn a thing or two from you and how you handled this!
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