Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Yes, I'm Still Here!

This one's a bit of a non-post and a ramble, just to try and capture my end-of-year mood and show that I'm still here.

I hoped today would be the day that I finally got to post my half-marathon story.  It was such an amazing experience, and I feel like I should have eagerly jumped all over it and had it done by now.  It tends to keep getting sidetracked by...well, just about everything:  holiday hanging out; feasting, playing, and resting with my family; going back to work after a nice week off; hitting the gym again.  I started writing about it again last night, but I realized that it wasn't going to get finished, and I felt so frustrated.  I had time over vacation, but I didn't do it then, either.  Why am I putting this off?

Health and fitness-wise, I pretty much took the holidays off.  No tracking, no weighing/measuring/portion control, lazily eyed the carb intake, was less scrupulous about fiber and veggies.  I think it was kind of a reaction to the panicked clamping down earlier in the month.  So I think I'm just going to try gradually picking up the reins again and easing them in.  Keep doing at least my minimum fitness goals; use portion control on the protein and carb and saturated fat items; aim for at least 3 veggie servings per day.  I guess just go back to my "ordinary time" eating and fitness, and see what happens from there.

Thing is, I'm not fired up.  I'm not eager to jump back in and set goals...yet.  I'm usually not ready for all the New Year's hype, and I am not one for making the infamous "New Year's Resolutions."  I'll come up with some 2011 plans, and fairly soon, but not just right now.

I do hope everyone enjoys a wonderful end-of-2010 and close of the holiday season!  


Brooke said...

its hard when you get off track like that...and "resolutions" seem so easy to break don't they?

Pubsgal said...

NO kidding! I've come to realize that a lot of people in blog-land rush toward new year's talk as a coping mechanism, but I've historically felt cranky at having the holidays rushed. Probably because I didn't want to do the healthy stuff everyone felt so gung-ho about. I think some residual "meh" feeling is still there when it comes to New Year's Resolutions.

What I have found, though, is that when I make goals (I just can't call them "resolutions" anymore) that are part of what I was planning to do anyway, regardless of the turning-of-the-year, it works a lot better. My health goals and quarterly race goals having become my go-to items. Not sure what else will be in the mix, but I want to figure out some fun things.

Lori said...

Wasn't it Debby that said something about just going back to normalcy instead of freaking out? Works just as well, albeit a little slower.

I think the weather has some people in a funk as well. I know the greyness this December has been a little bit of a downer for me.

I don't like to call them resolutions either. I am making a 'to-do' list for 2011 :D

Pubsgal said...

@Lori: Yes, I think it was Debby. I also felt very inspired by Cammy's (Tippy Toe Diet) post about feeling "blobby" and how happy she felt that she was in tune with her body. Definitely a different way of looking at it. I'd say I'm feeling more anxious about it than glad, but I know that freaking out isn't my best response. ;-) I really ought to trust that I return to the good habits, and that they are most effective in the long run. I feel a little chagrined that I'm still learning that.